and I’m terrified what you’re going to tell everybody else. When they sit there and ask, where’s your girl at? What will you say? Will you say good things or bad things. Make me seem like a freak when I was just scared to lose you? I hate feeling like this. I hate falling fast for guys. This is why I have my rules, but I always seem to break them.
I want someone to chase after me for once. I’m so tired of trying to catch someone that doesn’t even want to be caught. It’s fucking pointless. I want to know what it feels like to have someone like me as much as I like them. To treat someone like complete shit, yet they still…
(Source: best-f0r-last)
I hate this feeling.
The feeling where you just feel stupid for even trying to be with someone because in the back of your mind you always knew that it would never have worked out anyways.
I hate that moment when you seem to be getting better. You seem to have it all together for once. You seem to be content for once. You actually smile because you want to. Then, little things happen and they get to you. They eat at you. It’s only slight at first; just ticking away at your barriers. But, then, in that one moment, you lose it all. And you can’t control anything. You feel dizzy and dark. Lost and confused. Hopeless. And you have absolutely no one to talk to, because you feel like this parasite that can’t be dealt with any longer. You lie on your floor, shaking. Sobbing. Your eyes, face, and stomach burning. And you fall for the billionth time.
(Source: homelesshippiepeaceactivist)
